So this confession gave me a lot of Thorki feels last night, until I realized something:
The thing is….this confession WAS true.
Loki WAS Thor’s favorite…..until Jane.
I love that in the first film, the final breaking point for Loki was him asking Thor, “What was it that made you so soft?…don’t tell me it was that WOMAN.”
And seeing the resignation and guilt and admittance on Thor’s face—that is when the dam breaks, when the tears come, and Loki just loses it.
No, he wasn’t jealous that Thor got himself some Portman pussy. He was angry, hurt, and betrayed that Thor could change, become a better person—become the person that Loki had always wanted Thor to be—for a woman he had known for only a couple of days, instead of for his brother who had been there for him his whole life.
Thor and Loki’s story is essentially a story of betrayal—Loki betraying Thor by turning his back on his family and attempting to destroy Jotunheim/Earth, becoming a supervillain, etc…..and Thor betraying Loki by not loving him anymore.
And it’s true…all his life, Loki had known nothing but disappointment. He was the second-best ruler, second-best son…and the only person who had ever thought of him as “best”—the only person who had ever really loved him—was Thor. But when Thor “trades” his brother in for Jane, Loki officially becomes second-best in everything—second-best to Asgard, second-best to his father, and most hurtfully, second-best to Thor.
And that is when when the betrayal hits, that is when Loki’s self-esteem shatters, and that is when his heart breaks.
I love that Tom Hiddleston said before that Loki was motivated by heartbreak. Not by anger, not by jealousy, not by revenge….but by heartbreak.
Oh dear god. You people are intent on breaking my heart.
I rewatched “Thor” today on my way to LA and I agree with this.